Thoughts

   Another day,another post. I get to think about a lot of things last night. Although I felt torn between wanting to attend the senior dinner and feeling that the dinner isn't worth of my time, I get to learn new things.

   I've decided to give it a try on this family business. I guess I was so againts it at first because I thought it wouldn't suit me. But in reality, I just want the process to go perfect without flaws. That's what made me scared to try it. Scared because I couldn't get the perfect results. I guess I do crave for perfection. Humans aren't suppose to be perfect. I have to keep that in mind. Humans make mistakes. Humans cry and laugh. I have to remember that as well. I have to be brave on order to overcome all this fears. To be able to taste the bliss of the business world. To do a job without any regrets and to keep on living in hapiness. The book I read yesterday was very helpful in many ways. Seriously. I just have to keep things positive with minimal stress. I have to improve myself. A new image!

    I feel a lot better now. I'll just have to work my way through all those obstacles of life. The ups and downs of life. In order to overcome those obstacles I have to give my all. Don't think of being perfect in everything you do. Just do it the way you want. Just live the way you want positively. Time wouldn't wait for us. Time will keep on ticking. Yosh, this is a chance for me to improve myself!

The Holidays

   I feel like slamming my head on to the nearest wall. Seriously. I finished writing for this current post but then it got erased! Argh! Not my fault though. I blame the kid for erasing it. I can't even write in peace! Where's my personal space? I need my personal space back. 

Anyways,here we go again.

    Holidays during December are not that exciting for me. It feels like the holidays during weekends. I rarely go out. Like RARELY go out from the house. It's been a few years now. Few years straight. Period. I don't know how long I can handle this. It's really frustrating sometimes okay. We haven't go out for any holidays at all. I get it,they are busy. I absolutely understand that. But seriously, can't they make any time for us? At least one day! One day is enough. Forget about work and just take a break for one day. All those plans for the holiday is practically thrown in the bin. I was looking forward to go overseas this year but as the time goes by,it hit me like, "Not going again? Meh,forget it. ". Note to self, don't get your hopes up too high. Ah,so frustrating.

    I'll be taking a test to get a license tomorrow. Wish me luck! I hope after I get this license, I'll be able to spend some alone time. Just by myself. Nobody else. Having a drive all alone while listening to my favourite songs. Ah,it looks awesome just visualising it. I can just taste the afternoon air already. Hopefully, I'll get enough motivation before my university life starts. I badly need it. Some alone me time. 

Current song playing: Run by Bangtan

Being here once again!

      I was in the mood to do some blogging again after a few years of secondary school! I have lots of free time at the moment before becoming busy again. I found my old blogs and...wow weeee, what is this? The younger me is so pure and well pure! I'm amazed to see my own growth. I'm currently 17 now. Will be 18 next month! I just completed my SPM too! Ah,the joy after finishing school is the best I'd say. 

      Anyways,back to the current situation! Life has been great. Ups and downs are normal but meh,who cares. As long as you keep being on positive and strive for your goals it'll be all great. I'm waiting for my exams for my driving license this Thursday. I'm nervous ahahah! It's a new thing to me and I'm planning to ace it to get to the next level.It's currently 12.57 am here. I'm not in the mood to sleep so early. The reason I suddenly have the mood to blog again? Well, I have this need to express myself through writing again. It's hard to express openly in words to other people who wouldn't understand you ahah.

      Today was a good normal day like always do. Well,until I woke up after Asar I started to get all messy and jumbled up. One of the reasons why I don't like taking naps. I mistook sugar for salt because the sugar was in the salt's container. I can't with myself, please. The ability to think straight and to form the correct words are out of the question. Everything I said is like the wrong thing. Tsk tsk,..Ain't good. Well that sums up for today's events. Well write more when I feel like it.